From the Journal

Writing, as I go

A mix of personal journal entries and short explainers on things I'm learning. Unedited enough to still sound like me.

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Building This Page

Writing all of this down publicly is its own small exercise in non-self — letting go of the version of me that wants to look like an expert.

On Losing Interest, and Coming Back

Almost two months off, and what coming back without shame taught me.

Sitting With Grief

Practice didn't remove the loss. It gave me somewhere steady to put it down for ten minutes at a time.

What the Eightfold Path Isn't

I'd been treating it like a checklist you finish. It isn't.

What I Got Wrong About Karma

It took a year of practice to stop treating karma like cosmic bookkeeping.

The First Retreat

A weekend of silence, two unexplained cries, and a lighter walk home.

Beginner's Mind, Explained

Why the name of this whole site is also the hardest habit to keep.

Week One: Learning to Sit

Five minutes felt like an hour, and I kept a timer visible the whole time.